It was the Summer of 1990.
I was 8 years old, an only child, and, no doubt, the picture of innocence — with perhaps a hint of spoilt brat thrown in for good fun (sorry Mum).
I had long, curly, brown hair that hung like spaghetti down my back. My face was freckled and my cheeks glowed pink, as a result of being kissed too many times by the Australian sun. I had ballerina fingers and gangly arms that seemed somehow longer than my legs. Yep. I was just a regular, Aussie kid.
But my eyes. Oh, my big, blue eyes. There was nothing regular about those. They were as bright as the summer sky.
Do you want to know why?
Because they were full of magic. The magic of Christmas.
Pure, delicious, magic.
I mean, before today, did you know what Noel spelt backward was?
You see? Magic. Christmas time does that.
But as wonderful as that is, we must get back to my story.
Where were we? Ah, that’s right.
Now, in 1990, when I was that curly haired picture of innocence, I’d begun to hear whispers. Very loud whispers. They came from the kids at school. You see, the kids at school all said that Santa was not real.
I know.
How, silly.
But that’s what they said.
I told my Mum—my best friend— what these other children had been saying. I looked up at her, my eyes a little wider than usual, and I just came out with it.
‘Tell me the truth, Mum. You really are Santa, aren’t you?’
Of course, I had hoped her answer would be no. But I was old enough. It was time that I knew the truth.
‘Okay. Yes, I am Santa,’ she said, her eyes squinty with apprehension. ‘But just because Santa is not real, that does not mean that the magic of Christmas is not. Do you hear me?’
And she was right.
Still, I was sad.
There was no Santa. He wasn’t real, after all.
But I was old enough to know. I was brave enough to move on.
One day, not long after, I was playing alone in my room when my Mum— my best friend— came to me. We played for a while, just us girls, you know. And then she said something that made me laugh. She said this.
‘Santa really is real, you know. I believe that he is.’ She smiled at me, picked up a doll and continued to play, like nothing had happened. Had she just tried to make Santa real again?
‘Mum!’ I cackled. ‘I know Santa is not real! You already told me. You can’t take that back!’
‘Why can’t I? He is real,’ she said, her eyes full of mischief and fun. ‘Maybe I do give you presents, but I still believe that Santa is real.’
We left it at that. I went on knowing that Santa was not real, but believing in my heart that he really truly was.
That was the most beautiful Christmas gift my Mum ever gave me. The magic of Christmas.
And now, I’m giving that same magic to you. Because as we head into December and the new year edges that little bit closer, it’s always nice to know that you have a little magic in your corner.
Just think of what you might be able to do with it!
Love this! I was an only child as well. My mom and I never had the full “real or not” discussion, and by the time I knew… I played along for her. It was a nice balance. First she pretended for me, then I pretended for her. It helped us keep that Christmas magic! 😉
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Oh my goodness!! I LOVE that! How completely adorable. Definite Christmas magic!
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😀 ♡♡♡ I think of her so often this time of year. She so loved Christmas!
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Love your story of your childhood Christmas and thank you for sharing some of its Christmas magic 🙂
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Thanks Louise! I’m glad you liked it! I’ve been popping by your blog too, but there I’ve not been able to ‘like’ your posts for some reason. But I do like! xx
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Thanks – that’s ok, I think it’s because of going self-hosted, will have to see if there’s a plugin to add the ‘like’ function back x
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I love this! Very sweet of you to spread Christmas magic :). I don’t think I ever believed in Santa as a kid. I wonder what kind of magic I missed out on…
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My pleasure! Love spreading a bit of Chrissy cheer 😀 Its hands down my fav time of year. And it’s never too late to believe 😉 xx
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Lovely, Teemater. You enjoy the festivities! And happy thanks giving 🙂 xx
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🙂 I believe in Santa, he really is real you know. I will be leaving out a glass of milk and a cookie for him and some carrots and water for the reindeer. 🙂
Thank you Miss Cookas for sharing with us some Christmas magic.The gift that keeps the child within us alive forever !
p.s Your story is so beautiful it bought tears to my eyes and a smile to my heart.
Thank you
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Teemater, I knew I could trust you to be a believer. I’m so glad you liked my story.😊xx
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I Loved it !! We put up our Christmas tree here, tomorrow ,the day after Thanksgiving. I can’t wait till Santa comes I will have to start being good , because I know he will be watching 🙂
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